Cela fait trente-cinq ans que je tiens des journaux intimes. J'y consigne mes réussites et échecs, mes joies, mes chagrins, les choses qui m'ont émerveillé et celles qui m'ont fait rire aux éclats. Trente-cinq ans à prendre conscience, à me souvenir, à me rendre compte, à comprendre, à rassembler et à griffonner ce qui m'a ému ou excité en route. Comment être juste. Comment moins stresser. Comment m'amuser. Comment moins blesser les autres. Comment être moins blessé. Comment être un type bien. Comment obtenir ce que je veux. Comment trouver un sens à la vie. Comment être plus moi-même.
Récemment, j'ai trouvé le courage de m'attaquer à ces journaux et de les relire en entier. Ce que j'ai trouvé?? Un catalogue d'histoires, de leçons que j'avais apprises et oubliées, de poèmes, de prières, de recommandations, de réponses à des questions que je me posais, de questions que je me pose encore, d'affirmations, de doutes, de professions de foi sur ce qui importe vraiment, de théories sur la relativité, et toute une ribambelle de slogans.
J'ai découvert ce qui, dans mon approche de la vie, m'avait donné le plus de satisfaction à l'époque et m'avait guidé. J'ai appelé ça attraper les feux verts. C'est un thème solide.
Donc j'ai pris mes journaux sous le bras et me suis offert un confinement en solitaire dans le désert, où je me suis mis à écrire ce que vous lisez à présent?: un album, une trace, une histoire de ma vie jusqu'à ce jour.
Les choses que j'ai vues, rêvées, cherchées, données et reçues.
Les vérités explosives qui ont tellement court-circuité mon espace-temps que je n'ai pu les ignorer.
Les contrats que j'ai passés avec moi-même, que j'honore pour beaucoup, et dont pour la plupart je cherche encore à me rendre digne.
Voilà ce que j'ai vu, et comment - mon ressenti et mes trouvailles, mes moments de classe et de honte. Les grâces, les vérités et les beautés de la brutalité.
Les initiations, les invitations, les calibrages et transitions.
Les «?je m'en sors à bon compte?», les «?je me fais choper?», et les «?je me mouille en essayant de danser entre les gouttes?».
Les rites de passage.
Ce livre raconte aussi comment choper les feux verts, réaliser que les feux orange et les rouges peuvent changer de couleur aussi.
Ce livre est une lettre d'amour.
À la vie
Alan Rickman remains one of the most beloved actors of all time across almost every genre, from his breakout role as Die Hard ''s villainous Hans Gruber to his heart-wrenching run as Professor Severus Snape, and beyond. His air of dignity, his sonorous voice and the knowing wit he brought to each role continue to captivate new audiences today. But Rickman''s artistry wasn''t confined to just his performances. Fans of memoirs at large will delight in the intimate experience of reading Rickman detailing the extraordinary and the ordinary in a way that is ''anecdotal, indiscreet, witty, gossipy and utterly candid''. He grants us access to his thoughts, not only on plays, films and the craft of acting, but also politics, friendships and life. The Rickman Diaries was written with the intention to be shared, and reading it is like listening to Rickman chatting to a close friend.
Walking with Ghosts is the stunningly evocative memoir by Irish actor and Hollywood star, Gabriel Byrne. ''Dreamy, lyrical and utterly unvarnished'' - Colm Toibin As a young boy growing up in the outskirts of Dublin, Gabriel Byrne sought refuge in a world of imagination among the fields and hills near his home, at the edge of a rapidly encroaching city. Born to working-class parents and the eldest of six children, he harboured a childhood desire to become a priest. When he was eleven years old, Byrne found himself crossing the Irish Sea to join a seminary in England. Four years later, Byrne had been expelled and he quickly returned to his native city. There he took odd jobs as a messenger boy and a factory labourer to get by. In his spare time he visited the cinema, where he could be alone and yet part of a crowd. It was here that he could begin to imagine a life beyond the grey world of ''60s Ireland. He revelled in the theatre and poetry of Dublin''s streets, populated by characters as eccentric and remarkable as any in fiction, those who spin a yarn with acuity and wit. It was a friend who suggested Byrne join an amateur drama group, a decision that would change his life forever and launch him on an extraordinary forty-year career in film and theatre. Moving between sensual recollection of childhood in a now almost vanished Ireland and reflections on stardom in Hollywood and on Broadway, Byrne also courageously recounts his battle with addiction and the ambivalence of fame. Walking with Ghosts is by turns hilarious and heartbreaking as well as a lyrical homage to the people and landscapes that ultimately shape our destinies. ''Make no mistake about it: this is a masterpiece . . . poetic, moving and very funny'' - Colum McCann, author of Let the Great World Spin
The legendary Academy award-winning writer and director takes the reader on a unique joyride of personal memoir, cultural criticism and Hollywood history. For the first time, in his own words, explore the mind, the myth, and the movie magic of the one and only Quentin Tarantino.
The raw, candid, unvarnished memoir of an American icon Several years before he died in 2008, Paul Newman commissioned his best friend to interview actors and directors he worked with, his friends, his children, his first wife, his psychiatrist, and Joanne Woodward, to create an oral history of his life. After hearing and reading what others said about him, Newman then dictated his own version of his life. Now, this long-lost memoir-90% Newman''s own narrative, interspersed with wonderful stories and recollections by his family, friends, and such luminaries as Elia Kazan, Tom Cruise, George Roy Hill, Martin Ritt-will be published. This book will surprise and even shock people, it reveals unknown sides of Paul Newman: funny and tragic, charming and insightful, personal and professional. Newman''s traumatic childhood is brilliantly detailed: his terrible relationship with his mother (he says she always considered him purely a decoration, not an actual child), his complicated relationship with his father (who once insisted eight-year-old Paul walk home several miles with a broken leg). He talks with extraordinary honesty, insight and humor, about his insecurities as a teenager, his lack of success with women, his feelings of failure. Tales of his army years feel like a movie in itself. His college years, his early yearnings to be an actor, learning his craft, his acting rivals at the beginning of his career (Brando and Dean), his films (good and bad) - he spares no one, including himself. He discusses the complicated relationship he had with his first wife, his son Scott''s death, and his guilt about that death. Perhaps the most moving material in the book comes when he discusses Joanne Woodward-their love for each other, his dependence on her, even their sexually charged life together.
From Drugstore Cowboy to Elephant, Milk and Good Will Hunting, Gus Van Sant?s films have captured the imagination of more than one generation. Alongside his filmaking, however, Van Sant is also an artist, photographer and writer. Based on a series of completely new and exclusive interviews, this book provides a personal insight into how Van Sant successfully approaches these different and very varied artforms, providing an inspirational look into the working life of one of America?s most pivotal cultural and creative practitioners.
They called for a break, and Gambon magicked up a cigarette from out of his beard. He and I were often to be found outside the stage door, having ''a breath of fresh air'', as we referred to it. There would be painters and plasterers and chippies and sparks, and among them all would be me and Dumbledore having a crafty cigarette. From Borrower to wizard, Tom Felton''s adolescence was anything but ordinary. His early rise to fame saw him catapulted into the limelight aged just twelve when he landed the iconic role of Draco Malfoy in the Harry Potter films. Speaking with candour and his own trademark humour, Tom shares his experience of growing up on screen and as part of the wizarding world for the very first time. He tells all about his big break, what filming was really like and the lasting friendships he made during ten years as part of the franchise, as well as the highs and lows of fame and the reality of navigating adult life after filming finished. Prepare to meet a real-life wizard.
Viola Davis is a critically revered, award-winning actress of film, television and theater. She is the first Black actress to win Tony ( Fences & King Hedley II ), Oscar ( Fences ) and Emmy ( How to Get Away with Murder ) awards - The ''Triple Crown'' of acting. Davis starred in the Shondaland show "How to Get Away with Murder," a role for which she became the first African American actress to receive the Emmy Award for "Outstanding Lead Actress in a Drama Series." In 2012, Davis and her husband founded their production company, JuVee Productions, with its focus being on giving a voice to the voiceless through strong, impactful and culturally relevant narratives. Davis will next star in Showtime''s The First Lady, portraying Michelle Obama. Finding Me is her first book.>
THE NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER David Lynch - co-creator of Twin Peaks and writer and director of groundbreaking films such as Eraserhead , The Elephant Man , Blue Velvet and Mulholland Drive - opens up about a lifetime of extraordinary creativity, the friendships he has made along the way and the struggles he has faced to bring his projects to fruition. Room to Dream is both an astonishing memoir told in Lynch's own words and a landmark biography based on hundreds of interviews, that offers unique insights into the life and mind of one of the world's most enigmatic and original artists.
A silent comedy star whose legendary slapstick routines are recognisable to this day, Charles 'Charlie' Chaplin's My Autobiography is an incomparably vivid account of the life of one of the greatest filmmakers and comedians, with an introduction by David Robinson As a child, Charlie Chaplin was awed and inspired by the sight of glamorous vaudeville stars passing his home, and from then on he never lost his ambition to become an actor. Chaplin's film career as the Little Tramp adored by the whole world is the stuff of legend, but this frank autobiography shows another side. Born into a theatrical family, Chaplin's father died of drink while his mother, unable to bear the poverty, suffered from bouts of insanity. From a childhood of grinding poverty in the south London slums, Chaplin found an escape in his early debut on the music hall stage, followed by his lucky break in America, the founding of United Artists with D.W. Griffith and Douglas Fairbanks, the struggle to maintain artistic control over his work, the string of failed marriages, and his eventual exile from Hollywood after personal scandals and persecution for his left-wing politics during the McCarthy Era. Sir Charles 'Charlie' Chaplin (1895-1976) was born in Walworth, London. Best known for his work in silent film, his most famous role was The Little Tramp, a universally recognisable and iconic character who appeared in films such as The Kid (1921), The Gold Rush (1925) and City Lights (1931). His other films include Modern Times (1936), a commentary on the Great Depression, and The Great Dictator (1940), a satirical attack on Hitler and the Nazis. If you enjoyed My Autobiography , you might like Andy Warhol's The Philosophy of Andy Warhol , also available in Penguin Modern Classics. 'Tells so much about this curious, difficult man ... a wonderfully vivid imagination' The New York Times 'The only genius to come out of the movie industry' George Bernard Shaw
For readers of Nora Ephron, Tina Fey, and David Sedaris, this hilarious, poignant, and extremely frank collection of personal essays confirms Lena Dunham - the acclaimed creator, producer, and star of HBO''s ''Girls'' - as one of the brightest and most original writers working today. ''If I could take what I''ve learned and make one menial job easier for you, or prevent you from having the kind of sex where you feel you must keep your sneakers on in case you want to run away during the act, then every misstep of mine was worthwhile. I''m already predicting my future shame at thinking I had anything to offer you, but also my future glory in having stopped you from trying an expensive juice cleanse or thinking that it was your fault when the person you are dating suddenly backs away, intimidated by the clarity of your personal mission here on earth. No, I am not a sexpert, a psychologist, or a dietician. I am not a mother of three or the owner of a successful hosiery franchise. But I am a girl with a keen interest in having it all, and what follows are hopeful dispatches from the frontlines of that struggle.''
A NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER A Daily Mail Book of the Year. A Mail on Sunday Book of the Year. Famed American actress Demi Moore at last tells her own story in a surprisingly intimate and emotionally charged memoir. For decades, Demi Moore has been synonymous with celebrity. From iconic film roles to high-profile relationships, Moore has never been far from the spotlight - or the headlines. Even as Demi was becoming the highest paid actress in Hollywood, however, she was always outrunning her past, just one step ahead of the doubts and insecurities that defined her childhood. Throughout her rise to fame and during some of the most pivotal moments of her life, Demi battled addiction, body image issues, and childhood trauma that would follow her for years - all while juggling a skyrocketing career and at times negative public perception. As her success grew, Demi found herself questioning if she belonged in Hollywood, if she was a good mother, a good actress - and, always, if she was simply good enough. As much as her story is about adversity, it is also about tremendous resilience. In this deeply candid and reflective memoir, Demi pulls back the curtain and opens up about her career and personal life - laying bare her tumultuous relationship with her mother, her marriages, her struggles balancing stardom with raising a family, and her journey toward open heartedness. Inside Out is a story of survival, success, and surrender - a wrenchingly honest portrayal of one woman''s at once ordinary and iconic life.
A message from the Captain: 'On behalf of myself and the entire Ayoade team, welcome to Ayoade on Top . At last, the definitive book about perhaps the best cabin-crew dramedy ever filmed: View from the Top , starring Gwyneth Paltrow.' Buckle up for the flight of your life. 'The most profoundly silly book on film I've ever read and somehow one of the most insightful too.' Edgar Wright 'A brilliant satire of film, academia, commerce and Richard Ayoade . . . The funniest book I've ever read.' Jesse Eisenberg 'I haven't laughed this much reading a book in a long time. The man is a national treasure.' Big Issue
In 1994 fledgling journalist Louis Theroux was given a one-off gig on Michael Moore's TV Nation, presenting a segment on apocalyptic religious sects. Gawky, socially awkward and totally unqualified, his first reaction to this exciting opportunity was panic. But he'd always been drawn to off-beat characters, so maybe his enthusiasm would carry the day. Or, you know, maybe it wouldn't . . .In Gotta Get Theroux This, Louis takes the reader on a joyous journey from his anxiety-prone childhood to his unexpectedly successful career. Nervously accepting the BBC's offer of his own series, he went on to create an award-winning documentary style that has seen him immersed in the weird worlds of paranoid US militias and secretive pro-wrestlers, get under the skin of celebrities like Max Clifford and Chris Eubank and tackle gang culture in San Quentin prison, all the time wondering whether the same qualities that make him good at documentaries might also make him bad at life.As Louis woos his beautiful wife Nancy and learns how to be a father, he also dares to take on the powerful Church of Scientology. Just as challenging is the revelation that one of his old subjects, Jimmy Savile, was a secret sexual predator, prompting him to question our understanding of how evil takes place. Filled with wry observation and self-deprecating humour, this is Louis at his most insightful and honest best.
At last, the Academy, Tony, and three-time Emmy Award-winning actor and trailblazer, Cicely Tyson, tells her stunning story, looking back at her six-decade career and life.
Hugh Bonneville is one of Britain''s best-loved actors - having starred in, among others, Downton Abbey, W1 and Paddington . From getting his big break as third shepherd in the school nativity play to navigating Highclere Castle''s complex Labrador policies, Hugh brilliantly evokes his life on stage and screen. What is it like working with Maggie Smith, Anthony Hopkins, Judi Dench and Ralph Fiennes? As a naturally gifted writer and uproariously funny storyteller Hugh brings us up close and personal - though his wit is always kindly, and invariably directed at himself. There is shade as well as light to his memoir: he writes very touchingly of caring for his beloved, Alzheimer-suffering father, and of the mother whose life of secret work only emerged after her death. Humour keeps bubbling to the surface, however: whether telling stories of his B&H, G&T, horse-racing addicted grandmother, how the instruction ''call my agent'' can backfire horribly, or working with a two-foot-high animated bear called Paddington.
From influential and iconic star Constance Wu, a powerful and poignant memoir-in-essays full of funny and intimate observations that will resonate with readers everywhere. Like her, the book is bold, emotional and unexpurgated; the story of an Asian American who always wanted to fit in, and ended up just wanting to be her true self. Independent A startling insight into the reality of trials by social media and sexual exploitation in Hollywood Most powerful is her #MeToo rallying cry, which will make your skin crawl and your blood boil. Sunday Times Growing up in the friendly suburbs of Richmond, Virginia, Constance Wu thought that girls were supposed to be reserved, graceful, and polite. Everyone around her praised ladylike behaviour while seeming to disapprove of the louder, rougher girls the kind of girls who made scenes. And while she spent most of her childhood suppressing her bold, emotional nature, Constance found an early outlet in local community theatre. The stage was the one place where big feelings were okay were good, even. As she continued to reconcile her personality with the expectations of daily life, acting became more than a hobby. It was her refuge, her touchstone, and eventually her vocation. She went to New York to study classical theatre and pursue an acting career while waiting tables, dating, despairing, and embracing city life. In 2015, she was cast in the ground-breaking TV sitcom Fresh Off the Boat , a touching, funny story about an Asian American family in the 90s. Another historic role followed when she starred in the smash hit film Crazy Rich Asians , which featured an entirely Asian cast. These two pivotal moments in Hollywood history opened up a new chapter for Constance, who continues to explore the complexities of Asian American representation. Through raw, hilarious, and relatable stories, Constance fearlessly shares her experiences of growing up in suburban Virginia, scraping by as a struggling actress, falling in love again and again, confronting her identity and influence, and navigating the pressures and pleasures of existing in todays world.
Annoncé comme une «expérience repoussant les limites de l'esprit», L'Homme qui venait d'ailleurs (The Man Who Fell to Earth) de Nicolas Roeg, sorti en 1976, a sidéré le monde du cinéma. Véritable coup de maître dans l'art de la science fiction, le film n'a pas seulement provoqué des hallucinations visuelles et proposé une exploration obsédante de la folie contemporaine, il a aussi permis à une légende du glam-rock, David Bowie, de faire ses débuts d'acteur, dans le rôle principal de l'extraterrestre paranoïaque Newton.Inspiré du roman de science-fiction L'Homme tombé du ciel (The Man Who Fell to Earth) signé Walter Tevis, L'Homme qui venait d'ailleurs suit le destin de Newton, un extraterrestre débarqué sur terre pour y trouver de l'eau: sa transformation en riche entrepreneur grâce aux technologies révolutionnaires de sa planète d'origine, son éveil à la sexualité avec la jeune Mary-Lou, puis la révélation de son identité d'extraterrestre, son emprisonnement, son abandon et son basculement vers l'alcoolisme. Dans tout le film, Roeg convainc par son séduisante casting, dont Bowie bien sûr, excellent dans son personnage de voyageur de l'espace décalé, mais aussi Candy Clark, Rip Torn et Buck Henry, interprètes parfaits dans leur rôle.TASCHEN sort son The Man Who Fell to Earth avec une profusion d'images extraites du film ou prises pendant le tournage par le photographe de plateau David James, y compris les nombreux clichés d'un Bowie jouant à plein sur son ambiguïté. Une introduction inédite dévoile le tournage du film et son impact au-delà, grâce au récit exclusif de David James, témoin direct de la naissance de ce chef-d'oeuvre de la science-fiction.À propos de la collectionBibliotheca Universalis: la compilation culturelle indispensable qui rend hommage à l'éclectisme de l'univers TASCHEN !